romantic malevolence

I wish I could tell him

My feet are in the air

But he's never anywhere

Where I am

I'm on the train leaving

He's on the sidewalk breathing

Breathe it in in

Breathe it out out

I used to dream big of getting out

Stand on a stage and never look down

But now I'm on my own, I left him without a doubt

Now I'm on my own (are you having fun now, fun now)

Swinging on a stage all the stars in my veins

Bring me back to the old age

My feet are in the air, god is never anywhere where I am (where I am)

He's in his hometown with a girl and a gown

Meanwhile my songs are making sour sounds

It's an addiction, and I'm an addict

Could say I wanna fix it, but I'd be lying

Can never let things go, instead I make of them a show

Hurt me and you'll get the starring role

I'm on his stairs crying

He's standing there he's trying

Not to breathe, so I won't speak

In the next years to come, I'll write a thousand songs

But I know he won't listen to a single one

Now I'm on my own just going from wall to wall

Now I'm on my own I can't get out of bed at all

Would say it's a phase but it's been like this everyday

The only place I stand up straight is the stage

My feet are in the air, god is never anywhere where I am (where I am)

He's in his hometown with a girl and a gown

Meanwhile my songs are making sour sounds

It's an addiction, and I'm an addict

Could say I wanna fix it, but I'd be lying

Can never let things go, instead I make of them a show

Hurt me and you'll get the starring role

I did well but you never saw

Does it mean anything when he doesn't care at all?

Oh he shuts his eyes even at his own lies

I might be sad but at least I live a real life

Mr. politics, words they don't mean shit to you, to you

Mr. kiss and hit, it's not fair is it, when you leave me bruised

I did it all for you

I did it all until I couldn't

My feet are in the air god is never anywhere where I am (where I am)

He's in his hometown with a girl and a gown

But he's also kissing me inside my songs right now

He's never there, neither is god

Could say I care, but I do not

Can never let things go instead I make of them a show

Hurt me and it'll follow you wherever you go

My feet are in the air god is never anywhere where I am

He's in his hometown with a girl and a gown

Meanwhile my songs are making sour sounds

It's an addiction, and I'm an addict

Could say I wanna fix it, but I'd be lying

Can never let things go instead I make of them a show

Hurt me, for the starring role

Hurt me for the starring role

Hurt me for the starring role

Hurt me, you'll get a script and all

Hurt me, and I'll trap your soul